BinG's BloG~

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

ok,
this is the first time
i'm using my blog to sort out my thoughts.
bet i'll end my entry not 'cos i'm all sorted out,
but 'cos i dunnoe wth im saying.
but ah wells.

everytime unhappy stuff happens,
i kill myself over and over again.
it's when i'm so deep in my thoughts,
that i can't feel myself anymore.
but this time,
i've been given a little more time.
so an hour ago i thought to myself.
i'm already quite dead,
it's a familiar feeling.
but why is it here again?
must it always be like this when something unhappy happens?
it's really quite pathetic.
as usual,
i was finding fault with myself again.
i mean,
of course i did something that darling didn't like,
otherwise there won't be a need for this entry.
but is that the crux?
no one's perfect.
but why is patching up always so painful?
i really dunnoe what to do.
should i listen to jas and place my trust in time to do my job?
eh,
wth am i saying.
damn,
i really suck with expressing my thoughts through this.
come on,
i need a miracle.